One of those times

By | September 7, 2017

This was one of those times, which has been happening more frequently, but it wasn’t me.  I’m not causing it.  I know who I am and how I feel and why I feel it.  Yet, again, I’ve got some person trying to explain to me what I’m feeling and then even going so far as to ascribe motives… Read More »

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We’re off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of.. wtf?

By | December 13, 2016

It’s been an eon and a day since I’ve posted anything. There’s been this weird thing happening, some people call it life? Maybe you’re familiar with it? Goodness knows I’m only on snarling terms with it. It’s been… a very vivid year. I’ve lost almost all ability to walk, I can “transfer” and do a caveman/scarecrow locked leg… Read More »

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Motherhood, the gift and curse of letting go

By | May 12, 2016

I’m a bit slow on the uptake these days, that and I have a few decades of practice of ignoring the obvious and uncomfortable truths. My eldest child is all of five. That’s over five years of caring for, teaching, playing, stressing, disciplining, celebrating and, most importantly, getting to know my son. Five years is such a short… Read More »

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What fatigue is really like

By | May 2, 2016

There’s so much out there about being tired, exhaustion, fatigue, feeling run down. Some of those are similar, most are vastly different. The easiest way to think of the levels of energy and motivation is with salsa. Are you mild, feeling tired and a little run down? Maybe medium, where you’re well beyond tired and into exhaustion. Or,… Read More »

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Because life

By | April 27, 2016

As I’m coming through the valley of darkness, aka the latest MS flare, the pieces are slowly being picked up… Except for whatever new life form has evolved under the couch. It scares me so it can stay, maybe it will evolve to the point where we can converse. Everyone needs a minion. Finding new ways, adapting old… Read More »

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Today was A Day

By | March 18, 2016

The last year has been really hard on me physically. Between the stress and the move and the flare and and and… It’s been full and my health has taken a nose dive. It’s been… interesting… adjusting to not being able to walk suddenly. I always expected a gradual progression, not a sudden abrupt complete removal. That’s a… Read More »

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Plague City

By | March 18, 2016

Alex brought home yet another cold from Kindergarten. I’m pretty sure this is the same cold that has been in the school for the past four months but because everyone sends their kids in while sick it’s been mutating and getting passed back and forth. Ping pong style. If I had been channeling my inner Cassandra, it would… Read More »

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Parenting is always about letting go

By | March 4, 2016

My oldest child is a barely minted five year old. We put him into Kindergarten early because he was having behavioral issues due to boredom, and I couldn’t be his everything while still doing what the home needed and his baby brother required. Yes, I felt more than a little remorse and trepidation at letting my miracle child… Read More »

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Stay at home Mom, and stuff

By | March 3, 2016

Parenting is hard. I don’t care if you’re a super hero with as many working appendages as an octopus or cthulu, you never have enough time or physical resources to complete all the necessary tasks much less have those Instagram moments that are perpetrated in magazines and on Facebook. So how can I, she with less working appendages… Read More »

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