It’s been a long time since I’ve posted here. IVF was a bust, too many health problems despite several attempts. I could carry a child but the required medicines would be heinous and costly, not just monetarily.
Since going off all my meds I’ve had a few flares. Short lived, thank god, but there. My balance is for shit, energy is a fleeting memory and cognition has taken a nose dive into an abyss of drool.
The pain is so much more than it was. My legs feel like constant lava flows. Between the pain and the spasticity I’m working on cracking some back teeth. Not that I haven’t done that before, and not that I like repeating myself. Stomach acid has been amped, I just love feeling like I could spew at any given time. Its a lovely sensation, really. You should try it some time for fun and amusement.
After a serious screw up with my clinic my neuro called in some scripts; baclofen, neurontin and valium. I do not want to go back on the first two. Aside from adding to the fatigue they also add to my weight. Not that I couldn’t stand to gain some right now.
The baclofen seems to be adding to my instability (snicker) and the neurontin gives me this doped in the head feeling. It’s going to be interesting seeing how long I can avoid going back on these meds before I hurt too much. Yesterday was the first day I stopped taking them, today I’m about ready to sell my soul to make this stop.